Oct 23

The Return of “She” by Caty Ryan

It’s February 2018 and due to unforeseen circumstances, “She” has not been part of his life for almost 3 months.But as of today

“She” Returns

“His SO” is away for the weekend, so after a restful night in her silky cami, French knickers and pj’s, she awoke this morning and as she arose from her bed, her breasts** moved freely under the lovely soft material.

A quick breakfast and then time to get dressed for her day as Catherine. She adores classy lingerie, so her lacy full cup bra is quickly fastened behind her back, the black suspender belt fastened behind her waist and then with the aid of “hosiery gloves”,(must not ladder the lovely smooth stockings), she rolls them carefully up her long legs and  attaches the six lace frilled tabs. Thence back on with the dark grey silky, lacy, french knickers and cami, (oh so expensive, but oh so worth every penny!)

On with her full length, matching silky dressing gown to the bathroom to do her make up. A faint grin crosses “his” face as he waves goodbye to the gnarly old male face in the lighted oval make up mirror and accompanied by suitable soft “femme” background music from her I Pod, the facial transformation begins.

First to flatten and hide the male eyebrows as much as possible, so it’s clear mascara and concealer in her facial colours, then the “TV stick” foundation base. (No pun intended!). The darker shade goes on jaw lines, the nose and the forehead and the lighter one fills in from there.

Thence to the eyeshadow, eyeliner and mascara. A final coating of foundation matching setting powder before she quietly but surely, then applies her lipstick and blush. A quick brush out of her shoulder length strawberry blonde wig, plus a liberal spray of “Estee Lauder Beautiful” perfume and “She” is almost ready for the day.

At this time she remembers, as always, to silently thank “Michelle”, the wonderful and so cooperative make up artist that taught her so much about how to apply make up. Her skills are by no means perfect, but at least in photos, she “passes”. Tho’ she lives far away, Michelle is also Catherine’s hairdresser and she attends to her hair needs on a regular basis.

The final touches are to  don her 3 piece Laura K, “Mother of the Bride” ensemble, gorgeous long skirt, cami and soft mauve chiffon long sleeve jacket, the gold strappy 2 inch heels on her feet and matching gold jewellery on ears, neck and wrists. The necklace and (clip on) earrings are a special reminder of decades past, when his career dictated many long absences from home and she accompanied him on those trips. They were purchased in a major SE Asian city and altho’ she rarely ventured out of the hotel room, the times she did so were very special. Makeovers, photo shoots and then on to nightclubs and also driving through the English countryside will always remain fresh in her mind.

Caty Ryan as mother of the bride

 And as she leans on the table in front of her computer, her arms brush softly against her breasts:

“She”Caty Ryan has arrived home!


Memories of wearing almost the identical lingerie and outerwear on the first night of “Transformal” in the Blue Mountains behind Sydney NSW last year keep coming back. This being the equivalent of events like “Southern Comfort” in the USA. Also, wearing the same lingerie under a classy “business suit”, whilst emulating “the secretary on her lunch break”, on a lengthy shopping mall trip back in mid 2016. Both were unforgettable events in her life, which sadly, for personal reasons are unlikely to occur again.


My Love of Period Clothes

In addition,  in these later years of her life, her childhood fascination with female period clothing has manifested itself in the form of acquiring replica 17th Century “Marie Antoinette “ and American Civil War, “Scarlett O Catherine” ball gowns, with wearing the latter to the Saturday night formal at Transformal a highlight. The venue was an old style hotel, which allowed her to emulate “Scarlett on the staircase!”. Regrettably,  “Rhett” was not waiting for her the foot of said stairs!!!

Caty Ryan in period dress

Latter day formal wear is also a feature of her wardrobe, with long flowing gowns a particular favorite.

Sadly, time does not permit her to “do her nails”, i.e. attach the self adhesive fingernails to feminize his big clumpy male hands!!. The long sleeves, skirt and thick stockings are also required to help “him” become “her”. A full body wax would be the last remaining feminine frontier, but to do so would prompt some very pointed “”Questions in the House, from the Hone Secretary!!!”

Thence to go to the kitchen for lunch, short steps, one foot out in front of the other, her heels clicking merrily away on the tiled and hardwood floors of the house. There are steps up to the kitchen and she revels in the feeling of her breasts being firmly held in her bra, but with an ever so slight and wonderful “bounce” to them. 

“Visit to the ladies” are completed with much rustling of all the velvety soft materials that comprise female attire. Skirt up, knickers down, “business completed” and then the rustling and elastic snapping resumes in reverse. And without even thinking, she of course, automatically sits to relive herself. All the while, checking her suspenders and stockings to ensure they are correctly fastened and in place.

Another Evening

With the SO not due home until tomorrow lunchtime, she looks forward to another night being totally immersed in her being. She moves with casual, but graceful feminine hand and walking motions and then, being “dressed for dinner”, she consumes a home cooked meal accompanied by a glass of daintily sipped, good Australian Chardonnay.


Caty Ryan dinner at homeAt bedtime, minus her bra and now back in her soft, silky pj’s , she leans over the hand basin to clean her teeth and her breasts move in time with the cleaning motion.

In order to still appear feminine in the morning, (tho’ she recognises it’s not the “done thing), she will leave her make up on overnight and in the morning will enjoy a lovely “femme” shower. Precautions such as an old pillowslip to catch the make up stains, have long been part of her night time routine.

With her underwear emulating a “real girl”, via hanging from the towel rails, she will don her shower cap, have make up remover with her in the stall and revelling in the sound of the shower on her cap over her hair, will soap up her breasts to make sure they are nice and clean. Other bodily parts will receive the same treatment, but she is a lady and will not delve into such personal details!!

Post the shower, the sad part of her time comes along. She must pack up everything and put it all back in the various “hidey holes” Catherine lives in “on the premises”. Rooms are checked and checked again for any “evidence”, for her SO “knows” but most certainly does not approve.

A wave of extreme frustration wells over her, as she would much rather have all her belongings folded neatly in drawers or hanging in a wardrobe, rather than the assortment of old luggage and plastic shopping bags they “reside in” at present. Plus of course, the nagging, tummy turning, guilt he feels by not being in a position to openly discuss his feminine side with his SO. The “things” he has to do to “keep it all quiet”, are especially distressing!

Followed by reality hitting home hard, as “he” puts on the rough cotton material of male underwear and reverts to his “male me persona”. Someone who although he highly treasures “his” time as “her”, equally, he is happy being the “him”, so well known to family and friends.

Thus, “he” bids goodbye to “her” until next time and then awaits the return of his beloved SO and reverting back to, “being me”.

** NB. She adheres her breast forms with double sided tapes and adhesive wipes.

Happy Dressing everyone.

Caty Ryan

Caty RyanAbout Caty Ryan

Caty Ryan is a “mature aged” crossdresser living in regional Victoria, Australia. She loves all things feminine, especially classy lingerie and formal gowns, and has a long standing passion for period wear. She owns three lovely replica period gowns, 2 1700’s and one American Civil war replica gown..

Caty says, “I have always enjoyed writing and feel that given my age and CD experience, if I can pass on what has happened to me over the years in a fun and informative manner, then I may have helped a “newbie” come to terms with who they are,”.